You know who you are

This post is for a special reader of this blog. You know who you are. Just like Jude Law in I heart Huckabees, it is time to ask yourself, "how am I not myself?".
the river we spend our lives traversing spreads out before us, and we have opportunities to change its course. The future may look entirely too hard to deal with, but that is only through the prism of our past, and our present, which may also be too much for us to handle, but, in the end, our present is all we have, and together as humans, as lovers and friends, we know we can manage, and survive the sometimes torrential waters we must face. The debris in the river is something that must be dealt with, deftly, in order to make it to the sea, or lake, or water purification plant... Or wherever your river takes you, but this debris is part of the river as sure as the water is. Sometimes we find ourselves living lives other that the ones we saw ourselves living, sometimes drastically, painfully different, and it is in these times that we have to ask, "how am I not myself?", and we have to look inside our souls, into the great cosmic mirror, and we must find the answer to that question, we must face it, and we have to try our damnedest to find the pieces that we may have tossed overboard into the river, and put them back together. When we are not ourselves, we find ourselves in lives not our own, with hollow love, and empty promises of futures to difficult to deal with. When we are ourselves, our tiny moments of enlightenment, and realization, can become catalysts for great change, great hope, and an awakening to what we truly are, masters of our river. Magicians in the moment. Live now, or you may never truly live. Accept your truths, live them, trust them, and open your eyes to guide a river free of illusion. A friend once told me, " the only choice that matters is your next one, so long as your next step is a right one, the ones down the road will be easier to take." Namaste.